Burning Bush in the middle of a Busy Day

It is the end of the year and chaos has begun. One more full day of school, three days of exams (and grading exams), finishing final grades, cleaning the classroom, pacing guide prep for new 8th grade class, presenting 2 days with a fellow (fabulous) colleague, finishing out my School Improvement responsibilities and reports and then starting my summer job. PLUS, I am finishing one class (2 final assignments), just starting another class which means I will be driving to Mt. Pleasant for class and we might be watching our nieces for a week (final plans are still in the air)!!!! Oh my goodness.  The to do list keeps getting longer and my hair will probably start falling out any day now. Amidst it all, God slowed me down long enough to quiet my heart and give me a message of hope.

Today, my DOCTOR, not a nurse but my actual DOCTOR, called me to check up and see how I was doing. She explained the next steps, answered my questions and made a plan for me.  I think she could hear in my voice my real answer although "Okay, yep, I'm fine" is what came out.  That is when she shared too that she has been in my shoes, knows the thoughts in my head and heart and asked me "Do you have faith?" I know this must be a hard question for someone who really knows nothing about me beyond the facts in my chart because she definitely stumbled on it before it finally came out of her mouth. I answered, "Yes, I have faith." She told me to hold on to that faith and that she would be including me in her prayers. I could barely get off the phone before I was on my knees with tears in my eyes (big shock, I know) thanking God for this message. This burning bush in the middle of a busy day.

I know I will never understand all the pieces of my life until one day when I am talking face to face with my Savior but moments like these make it easier to get through the hard times.

Ministry of Music

So this morning, once again, I was ministered to by the music on KLove. I have been really struggling the past few days and the first song I heard when I got in the car was "Stronger" by Mandisa. The words fit EXACTLY with where I was. Perfectly. During my prayer time this morning, I wrote "Honestly, God I am angry with you. You hear my heart, you see my brokenness, and still you stay away.   I am tired of preaching faith in a loving God, when I feel you have deserted me. God, where are you? Don't you see I need you? Why have you put me here?"  The lyrics of the song brought me to tears (no surprise there) but how refreshing to feel like God is listening to my desperate and angry prayers after all.

Lyrics to Stronger :

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger

Hey, heard you were up all night
Thinking about how your world ain't right
And you wonder if things will ever get better
And you're asking why is it always raining on you
When all you want is just a little good news
Instead of standing there stuck out in the weather

Oh, don't hang your head
It's gonna end
God's right there
Even if it's hard to see Him
I promise you that He still cares

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
And things can only get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger
Gonna make you stronger, stronger, stronger
Believe me, this is gonna make you ...

Try and do the best you can
Hold on and let Him hold your hand
And go on and fall into the arms of Jesus
Oh, lift your head it's gonna end
God's right there
Even when you just can't feel Him
I promise you that He still cares

'Cause if He started this work in your life
He will be faithful to complete it
If only you believe it
He knows how much it hurts
And I'm sure that He's gonna help you get through this

When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
Believe me
This is gonna make you stronger